Make the MOST of Today
I hadn’t planned on touching on this subject, but here it is anyway. Today marks the 9th year since the passing of my first born. A week or so ago, I had a huge breakdown with my boyfriend. I told him that I was unable to see beyond our son’s 3rd month of life and that I was afraid to even think of his future. I had hopes and wants before, and in a way I didn’t want to dwell on those same hopes and wants for the 2nd time. I came across some old photos, and it shocked me how much my babies resemble one another. Sure I had noticed little features here and there, but as I rocked one baby to sleep, and gazed at the other on my phone, my heart sunk. There is so much in my 2nd born that I believed I missed in the life of my first baby. Its almost as if he’s been…. reborn or something. It sounds strange to say and even consider, but I don’t know how else to explain it. I miss my baby, and there are times I feel guilty for the things I do now, compared to the things I didn’t so many years ago. You have to cherish life man. Always make time for those you love, and be open to others wanting to spend time with you. None of us are promised another day, let alone another breath, so just be thankful for every opportunity to be alive. The world is cruel enough as it is so don’t add to its negative energy by being bitter. I truly believe there is and will always be SOMETHING to be thankful for, even in the darkest of times. And whatever that something is, cherish it! I know what I’m saying is nothing new, but the message still applies. Be joyous today! Love one another! Call that family member or friend today and let them know they’re more important than whatever grudge is keeping you separated. Get out and enjoy the sunshine. Let go. Live. Love.